This week I improvised on the theme of Franklin Booth making an original ink drawing but using his style as a starting point for my own inks. I didn't copy anything of his style - just used it as a jumping off point. I made a sketch of the rock formation at Fairy Glen on the Isle of Skye. (N.B. I made some alterations of the path at the base of the rock for aesthetic reasons - making the path run around the lower rock formation in only one direction when in reality it runs around both sides.)
I was quite happy with the pencils but became less happy with the drawing as I drew my inks in. Here is the final ink drawing...
Overall I like the shape and feel of the drawing. I especially like the darker rocks. However I prefer the pencil drawing overall and most especially I prefer the pencil clouds to the overly tight versions I managed in ink. I think a little bit more movement and flow in the drawing of these would have really helped. I was quite anxious as I drew them and couldn't find the space in my own head to relax and let it flow. I think this shows in the final drawing.
I am still struggling with my mental health. It feels, all of the time, like I can't find my groove. My thoughts feel out of place. I can do all of the basic things I normally do in life but my thinking, especially around language and personal expression, feels abnormally difficult. I've been told that it doesn't show but the struggle I have to express myself leaves me feeling vulnerable about what I say regardless. My psychiatric nurse said that some of this is my illness and some is the way the antipsychotic medication I am taking works. Unfortunately I am not in a position to come off these meds at the moment. Maybe, if I keep working at it I will make a new groove which might come to feel somewhat normal.
On a brighter note, as I write it is Midsummer's Day - so I wish you all a happy Summer Solstice!
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